Just As I Thought was written about a previous relationship that I had that just made all my other relationships previously feel completely indifferent. The last line of this poem was added on months later after things had changed.
Just As I Thought
I sit here on the curb.
It's dark except for
one street illuminating
the dark pavement in front of me.
Sitting here wondering,
I look back on the last
five years of my life
and I think of all the
different people who have hurt me.
Then I start thinking about you.
I think about how you walked
into my life and just made things
seem so wonderful and great.
Part of me expects you to be
just like the rest.
Although, a huge part of me
thinks you are different.
You don't make me feel like
I did with all the others.
You treat me with such respect
and loyalty, always making sure
I know where we stand.
However, sometimes I wonder
if you are for real, but
considering the circumstances
of our relationship I end up
just telling myself I'm silly
for thinking such thoughts.
I think you are pretty awesome,
you treat me so wonderful.
I'm so glad that I have met you,
and I hope that you never go anywhere.
Many people tell me I'm stupid
for getting myself into a relationship
where I can't really tell anyone about it,
but I think they are wrong.
So whaty if you choose not to tell anyone
about who you are seeing.
What we have is no concern to everyone else.
Besides, I don't think how you choose to live
your life makes you any different.
You're a fine looking person and
you have a big heart.
And for that I have a lot of respect
for you, and I have no doubts
that you would never intentionally hurt me.
So, all I ask is,
Please don't leave.
You have so far been
the best thing to happen to me.
